“Righteous are You, O Lord,
And upright are Your judgments.
You have commanded Your testimonies in righteousness
And exceeding faithfulness.
My zeal has consumed me,
Because my adversaries have forgotten Your words.
Your word is very pure,
Therefore Your servant loves it.
I am small and despised,
Yet I do not forget Your precepts.
Your righteousness is an everlasting righteousness,
And Your law is truth.
Trouble and anguish have come upon me,
Yet Your commandments are my delight.
Your testimonies are righteous forever;
Give me understanding that I may live.” (Psalm 119:137-144 NASB1995)
I have never been someone who is popular or well liked or
well known among the people. I have never been a particularly outgoing person,
nor was I ever someone who craved public attention. I was content staying in
the background, quietly living my life, taking care of my family, ministering
in the gatherings of the local church. I did love singing for my Lord, and in
front of people to minister to them, and because I loved singing, especially in
harmony with other people. That was the main outgoing thing I did.
But I also taught the Scriptures, beginning at age 16, but
that was usually in small groups of children and young people and women, much
of which was done in my home or other people’s homes, and some within the local
gatherings of the church, too. When I worked for pay, it was usually in the
area of clerical work, in an office somewhere, sometimes in church offices and
sometimes in small or larger businesses. And I did love to do office work, and
I loved helping other people, many times without pay at all.
While I was raising my four children, I did a lot of volunteer
work, mainly in the areas of music and clerical work, but also in teaching, and
in sharing the gospel with other people. I also volunteered in their schools
and in some of their other activities outside of school, mostly all in
supportive roles, but in a few leadership roles. But I was never an outgoing
person, although I could lead when I needed to, especially when leadership was
lacking, and so out of love and concern for others I stepped up to the plate, and
I led the group.
So, what does all this have to do with this passage of
Scripture? Well, the psalmist is talking about his zeal for the Lord and for God’s
testimonies. And he is also talking about his adversaries, who have forgotten
the words of the Lord. And he spoke of how small and despised that he was, yet
he did not forget the precepts of the Lord. And he also talked about how
trouble and anguish had come upon him, yet the commandments of God were his
delight. And so I was identifying with him in what he was expressing.
For I did not choose to do what I am presently doing. This
is not something I would have ever imagined doing, nor is it anything I would
have sought after on my own. And by doing what I am doing, in obedience to the
Lord, it does not gain me popularity. People are not largely drawn to me. I don’t
get a lot of “likes” for what I post each day. I do get some encouragement, but
I also get some strong opposition and some hateful remarks and false
accusations against my character. But that is par for the course for what I do.
So, how did I get to where I am today? Only by the grace of
God and by the calling of God on my life. I have absolutely no aspirations to
gain popularity or to gain public attention, but only to serve my Lord in
obedience to his call upon my life to write down what he teaches me from his
word each day and to post these writings on the internet so that a herald may “run
with it.” But sadly, I am small and despised, and I do have adversaries, and I
do get treated by some as though what I have to offer is worthless and not valuable.
Yes, I am nobody important in the eyes of the world, and I
am okay with that. But what God has me doing every day is not worthless. These
writings are being viewed daily by people in nations all over the world,
somewhere between 100 to 200 nations that I am aware of, and these writings are
getting 500 to 1,000+ views per day, as far as I am aware. And I know some of
those views could be AI, but not all of them are. So the Lord has essentially
called me to be a missionary to the world, all glory to God.
So, what some of you think about me, well I have no control
over that, and I am not in the business of trying to make you like me. I don’t
do what I do so I will be liked, for if that was my goal, I would not be
sharing what I share each day. But please know that these writings are going to
people all over the world and that they are being viewed by people in nations
all over the world, and that God is using these writings to minister the gospel
of our salvation to people in nations all over the world. So don’t despise
them.
And I would covet your prayers, that the Lord will continue
to give me strength and endurance to keep sharing the Scriptures with the
people of the world each day, in obedience to my Lord and to his calling upon
my life.
A Believer’s Prayer
An Original Work / July 31, 2012
Christ’s Free Servant, Sue J Love
With my whole heart,
Lord, I pray
To be Yours, and
Yours always.
Lead me in Your
truth today.
May I love You, and
obey.
Lead me in Your
righteousness.
When I sin, may I
confess;
Bow before You when
I pray;
Live for You and You
always.
Love You, Jesus,
You’re my friend.
Life with You will
never end.
You are with me
through each day,
Giving love and
peace always.
You will ne’er
abandon me.
From my sin You set
me free.
You died on that
cruel tree,
So I’d live
eternally.
Soon You’re coming
back for me;
From this world to
set me free;
Live with You
eternally.
Oh, what joy that
brings to me.
I will walk with You
in white;
A pure bride, I’ve
been made right
By the blood of
Jesus Christ;
Pardoned by His
sacrifice.
My Walk of Faith
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